I’ve started several posts these last couple days, but all of them… died after the first couple paragraphs. 😛 And I have a few ideas I want to blog about, but I’m afraid I just haven’t had time or the inspiration to flesh them out…

Which really is terrible considering tomorrow’s the last day of Rediscover.

In some ways I’m excited… After all, I’m a dreamer. A writer. An introvert. I really miss reading books, and watching movies. I can’t tell you how many books and movies, during the last 40 days, I have thought “Oh I should read/re-read/watch/re-watch that!” If I could have the mental list in my brain printed out, of what I wanted to watch and read after the fast ended, it would be pret-ty long…

On the other side…  it sounds dumb to think my relationship with God won’t be as close after this fast ends, but I think in some ways that is true. I think fasting is removing something from your life. It’s making room – making room for God. As one pastor from Imago Dei Community in Portland phrased it, it’s “making room for joy.” Fasting is an act of seeking. And God rewards the truthful, fervent seeker.

And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him ~ Hebrews 11:6

Looked for an image of running and couldn't resist this picture of Rocky, sorry 🙂

I dug holes… and kept them empty for two fortnights. Sometimes I filled them with other things, sometimes with God, but their very existence reminded me to focus my heart on seeking God & spending time with Him. Now as I fill those holes back up, with things that are great, that are things God’s created for us to enjoy here on this earth, I have to remember that those things are wonderful but they have their own place – which is BELOW God. I’ve been given the gift of  a 40 day time of learning how to seek God, and fill my empty time with Him, and taking the hand of a friend to stand back up when I fell down – and now I want to exit running strong, and continuing in this spirit of seeking God above world things.

Yeah, I know I’m going to fall on my face. Multiple times. But… I think the most important thing is to lean on God’s strength, to accept His forgiveness and to forgive myself, and to keep running this life for Him!

🙂 So those are my thoughts… Rediscover is drawing to a close, but my life and my relationship with God are still before me, a race waiting to be run well, until death and the glorious start of life beyond.

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